Step by step

Hello World,

I hope you are getting better every single day. It was pretty sudden for the world to be found in that pandemic reality. One day we’d heard the news from somewhere in China, and soon after we were on the same boat. However this sounds, in some odd way I actually find it uniting people. I speak to my colleagues in China and States regularly and we all have that understanding for each other because regardless of the culture, landscapes, language, personal problems, political situation we are all in the same (but so different from whatever we had known about it before) reality of “2 meters distance pandemic”…

This situation is new to most of us I believe

I wonder if there are more people like me, trying really hard to find positive side of it, however ambiguous this might sound. For those, that lost someone purely because of covid, I feel very sorry and hope that wherever he or she is right now, there is no pain, suffer, fear or loneliness. I hope and wish they are surrounded by pure love and feel like they are finally back home from a very challenging and draining journey. There is no place like home, is there… For the rest – so those here (along with myself) we have to try and get through this together. I feel like the earth is spinning way slower, giving us a second chance to rethink our priorities, what is really important in life and if it is worth arguing about simple things that are not even worth being talked about. It is also the time to realize how fragile we are and that waiting for the better tomorrow to come is just a waste of time, because what you will have tomorrow is dependant on who you are today.

YES – not even what you have, but who you are to yourself

(to begin with) and the others. I find it challenging having to face these thoughts, but it can also be of a great relief. And leaving that burden that I do not need anymore can give a new quality of life! So from one side you can see that actually tomorrow is not something given to us for granted – that places us in just the right place on our timescale of our lives. From the other side – what is the quality of this life is a reflection of your relationship with yourself. You could say – nooooo, I am dependant on my parents, husband/wife, boss, legislation in my country, and yet you can bo absolutely right however you have a choice of either being stuck in the current situation or making decision to actually change something. And where to take you strength from? This is the key. Your inner peace…

They say, that the ship does not sink because of the water outside, but the one that gets inside

And again – we are currently on the same boat – remember? I can see people panicking. OK, this is unusuall so we have the right to be anxious. But overpanicking was never the right attitude. Inner balance is the key. And surprisingly the whole pandemic situation, being stuck at home and having at least extra 3 hours of my time everyday back due to not having to commute helped me to achieve it. I slowed down, I took my time to be with myself first of all. I came to the conclusion, that my life was full of clutter I didn’t need (starting from the place I live in). It is much easier to have that insight into yourself, if you don’t have to run. London specifically needed it a lot… I come from a small city somewhere close to the lakes and forest where I could meet an elk on my lazy walk with my auntie. Being a part of London’s commuting routine was a bit of a shock, being surrounded by zombies looking in their phones on their early morning underground ‘race for life’ was a bit depressing.

It seems to be so easy to forget that this is not what human kind has been made for

I am a part of it, I have to be do keep myself in the loop. But not to the extend where I don’t notice other people’s presence. And if I ever took if for granted – I don’t anymore. Because now nothing is for granted. The only person you can be pretty confident will stay with you till the end is …yes. Yourself. So please, please make sure to have the best relationship with yourself you can. And yes – it can take time. But you just have to take that first step, and then another one, and next. Until you will get used to walking towards that version of yourself, that will not only be well looked after by yourself, but will be able to share it with the world and attract those, that can get their inspiration from you.

And once you are your best friend, you will want to make your dreams come true

When I was a child, I never had dreams. My dreams were to survive and have food and normal family. Some of those never happened, some of them I had to fight for to the extend where I didn’t have enough energy left to look after myself. That although made me stronger and difficult to break and led me who I am today. I don’t expect too much from life but I have my goals and things I reckon would make me happy. People tell me about my strength they notice almost every day, they seek my guidance, call me successful but it all came from me working hard on being my best friend. And you know what – whoever you are – I wish you tell. Even if you hurt me – it doesn’t matter 🙂 I pray for you and wish you find what I’ve found. And I found it in the middle of pandemic here in London, miles away from home and my family. And I will now not hecitate to make my dreams come true! 🙂